What you’re about to read below is a personal story of whom wants to remain anonymous for anonymity, but never the less, still powerful and enlightening. This personal lost everything in the midst of their addiction, but got the gift of life and a second chance to turn everything around for themselves. We at Recovery Society encourage you to learn and consider giving yourself the gift of life this holiday season as well.
“I Got A Gift Of Life And A Second Chance.”
I was a mess; I was convinced that life as I knew it was gone. I couldn’t even look myself in the mirror. I was surrounded by rolled up dollar bills and leftover residue that I had literally licked off the table. This was my life, this is who I turned into. I had no one to call, no one to call a friend, other than a drug dealer who made me do things that I had no choice in doing. I needed the pills, NEEDED them. I feared withdrawal so much that I did terrible things to myself and the people around me who once knew me as a girl who had such a bright future ahead of her. That girl was gone, a junkie who gave up everything for a tiny, blue pill that costed more than a full tank of gas.
I ostracized myself from everyone around me; my own parents and siblings had no idea who I was, or where I was for that matter. Hell, sometimes I didn’t even know. I sold everything I had, and even my families valuables, to support my habit to something that kept me from getting shaky and sick. At this point, I was lucky enough to have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in. I had nothing to call my own, except for a habit that I once thought I could stop, at anytime. I began begging to someone I had once called My God to be able to quit and have a “normal life” again.
My prayers were soon answered when people around me and even police officers began suspecting something was going on with me. The things I originally thought I borrowed to get money, their absence started getting noticed. Authorities were called and I was a suspect. I denied and denied for the fear of going to jail and breaking people’s hearts, but apparently at this point, I even looked like a drug addict (I hadn’t even admitted that to myself yet). I was caught, but in my mind I was grateful because I was so beyond ready to be done with it all. I contemplated suicide quite a few times, but was too big of a coward to ever go through with it. I was given the option of jail or treatment.
Looking back at it all, I was definitely given the gift of life. I chose treatment over jail of course, and it was a long, hard road. I now have 5 months clean and sober, have been given the gift of life and am getting so many things that I lost back. My mother and father call me a daughter once again. My little brother and old sister say that they’re proud of me, and no one knows how great of a feeling that is. For so long, I was not only distant from them, but I was a ghost. I was neither living or dead, I was simply existing and getting by day to day with the help of these little, blue pills. I’m feeling better than I have in 24 years of living. I am so grateful for my mom calling Recovery Society and giving me the gift of life that I never even knew was possible. Don’t let yourself get in the way of the happiness you deserve.
Give Yourself The Gift Of Life
This story was so moving, especially for us at Recovery Society. Seeing people thrive off of giving themselves the gift of life is why we do what we do. Seeing the spark light back up in someone’s eyes after being addicted and enslaved for so long is the most moving experience, and we are so blessed to be that stepping stone in this person’s life. Taking this step and making such a huge change in your life is scary, we are fully aware of this, for we have gone through it ourselves. By giving yourself the gift of life this holiday season, you’ll not only get your life back, but you’ll be able to be that mother, father, daughter, son, sister, or brother again. You’ll be able to wake up and think about life, not just how you’re going to get by that day. If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, give us a call today and see what your options are for getting your life back at (866) 527-5252.
